Sunday's Reflection 5/20

Today was the eclipse, the ring of fire. An opening and a transitioning. The change has already been happening and was already moving but this is a big shift, energetic and soon to be physical. New awareness and consciousness. The moon blocks the sun leaving darkness, only to move so you can see the sun again. We need darkness, we need the shadow side in order to SEE and appreciate and find our lightness.

I had an uncanny feeling yesterday that there was something sitting just on the edge of my perception. something big, something internal, something that will tear down another emotional wall and open me up further to my source, love...peace.....freedom.

I've had some amazing moments of clarity and oneness and wholeness and fullness and LOVE. interspersed between moments of judgment and emotion and guilt and responsibility. I've been physically exhausted for the past 3 days. The exhaustion is starting to ebb (the transmissions came earlier than JUST today at the eclipse). My body was preparing, resting, for the shifts my spirit is opened up to. There is fear..but not right now, there is anxiety...but not right now. There is a determination to keep moving forward, to keep aligned, to stay in love, and gratitude and wholeness. I'm on hyper awareness, there is no such thing as 'take a break'. To take a break is to disconnect and shut down, to go back to the old patterns, to pull the covers over my head. Yes some days my body needs rest, but that doesn't mean I have to shut EVERYTHING down. I've been tired but it seems my awareness has been hyper aware and tuned in.

In the tzolken calendar i follow, today is overtone human day. A day about being connected, there was a potluck here, and there was much opening to more connectedness and oneness. Where before I felt separate from and different, I started to feel included and part of. I can be different, I can have my own path, but I am welcome to come and be a part of, to be included, to be part of a whole.

And this evening a part of me has opened up that I didn't even realized I had closed down. The space for a relationship to happen. I was so shut off to the idea because.... really...... I have my own shit to go through lol. But a realization hit me..that I don't have to go through it alone. So now...i've opened up to the possibility, and in the mean time, i'm going to focus on connecting with the other beings around me, really listening, really being attentive to their being/soul. I am now 'BE'ing the person I want to be and the kind of persons I want to attract to me. I stand up for myself graciously while allowing others to BE.

I've also been receiving the message lately to 'create, create, create'. Before I thought this meant just art....and being exhausted this created stress in me (because 'i should be' doing that). And I will. I have an impulse and impetus to get into the studio, but i've also realized that a level of the creation is going into my BE-ing. letting go of old impulses to create a new everything.

I set an intention with myself to do 20 readings this week, if you would like some communication, OR a healing on this new planetary growth period and want to be a part of that intention please contact me and we can set something up. You now have the choice of getting the reading recorded =)

Love and blessings to you all. I support you in your change and I am holding the space for you to heal yourself. I have so much gratitude that you are here, taking this journey WITH me...I am not alone...YOU are not alone ♥